Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Crow's LiveJournal:

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Monday, July 13th, 2009
3:10 am	So, yeah. Employment. What a novel experience this is turning out to be. There's so much fucking whining that now takes on a frame of reference. Current Mood: uncomfortable (Comment on this)
Friday, June 26th, 2009
9:15 am	Oh. I have a job. Current Mood: surprised (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 24th, 2009
6:49 am	[Filter: Private] This is so I think It's not You know, I really wish I could just press a fucking button and be all fixed. That would be fucking great. I'm broken, Flo keeps saying. Yeah, I get it, maybe she's right. I feel broken. I wouldn't have come to close to being my fucking dad if I weren't broken. Hell, that takes a special kind of fucking broken right there. But fuck, I don't want to crawl around gathering up all the pieces and putting them together. I don't want to have to -- It hurts, thinking about all the fucking shit. It hurts trying to put words to it all. Focus on who you want to be, Flo keeps saying, but how the fuck am I supposed to focus on something when I haven't got the first fucking clue what the fuck it is?! Fuck. [Filter: Lark] Yeah, hi. I know you're going to be here soon or something but that's not what this is about. I, uh, I think think I'm ready to talk more, maybe. Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 24th, 2009
11:27 pm	[FIlter: Private] Maybe it is a little quieter up here. Or maybe I just convince myself it is so I feel less fucking stupid for actually going that. [Filter: Public] She says I'm actually getting good. I don't know, I'd say that I think she's just being nice, but to be entirely fucking honest, I'm starting to believe it. I like eating the things I make. I'd like it more if I had better shit to cook with, but she says they'll have that when I actually get paid for it. That sounded fucking ridiculous at first, but ... It wouldn't be so bad, having real work. The more I think about it, the more I hope it works out. Yeah, fucking journals, I'm sure everybody cares, whatever. I put up with all of your useless bullshit all the damn time. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 15th, 2009
2:37 am	[Filter: Lark] Hi. Look. I -- I want to talk about some things and you're probably the only person with any interest in fucking listening so, yeah, what the fuck ever, do you want a few minutes? Current Mood: embarrassed (Comment on this)
Monday, April 20th, 2009
1:40 am	[Filter: Lark] I was So lately it's been Look, Flo keeps saying that I fuck this so hard Current Mood: asdfgkdafa (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 5th, 2009
5:11 am	Y ... you know, this is actually sort of fucking fun. Once you start getting the hang of it and shit. I guess. Yeah. Current Mood: surprised (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 14th, 2009
9:44 pm	Holy fuck ... well, I got a fucking job. Or, rather, I'm going to be getting a job. I'm learning a skill that someone will apparently pay me for. Current Mood: bemused :| (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 21st, 2009
3:49 pm	[the writing is a little uneven] [Filter: Lark] Look, do you want to know why I'm an ass? Current Mood: mildly drunk (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2009
7:55 pm	[Filter: Private] What am I afraid of? I'm afraid of becoming like my father. And I was that close, too, after all my years fucking hating his miserable fucking guts. Or maybe even worse, becoming like Kooly. Just forgetting your friends, abadonning years of something that matters because something easier comes along. Just forgetting it ever fucking happened. I know he had friends there ... I know it was his family ... ... it doesn't matter. It's not like all the time he and I spent together was nothing. I don't want to lose anyone else the way that I lost him ever again. So what the fuck happens, then? It's a fucking balancing act. Drive out everyone so I don't lose anyone? Then I'm my fucking dad, and being just like Koo -- fucking Lucas. Get close to them, be a better person, don't give into myself, like Flo keeps saying? Then they own me. Then they can ruin me again with just a fucking flip of a finger. How the fuck does anyone deal with life? Fuck. Like I'd ever say any of this. Like anyone would. Worse fucking Wednesday question ever. Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 16th, 2008
12:10 pm	[the paper is creased and somewhat crumpled] I'm not I'm [a long jagged line] fine, if you So, Lark. ... What do you want? (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 28th, 2008
12:10 am	Why should I need to get a job? I've never had a fucking job. You don't need a job to be respectable. I can get by just fine without one. It's not like you can find a job in Colndor that isn't "bartender" or "whore" anyway. Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 12th, 2008
3:46 pm	[Filter: Private] If you're not going to accept a fucking apology, what do I care? Do whatever you want. You'll treat your mother like not a damn thing has changed even when Kooly has to hold me back from killing here, but, oh, when it's me -- Yeah, I know I need to calm down, I don't need you telling me that, old broad. Fuck off. Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Friday, August 1st, 2008
9:50 pm	[Filter: Private] [some scribbles] Yeah, fine, fuck, fine. This is Yeah, I know. I know. Fine. ... okay. [Filter: Lark] ... hey. Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 22nd, 2008
8:03 pm	[Filter: Private] Ugh, get out of my fucking face, old broad. I'm tired of your ... ... right. I'm tired of sitting here and knowing you're right about all of it. Why the fuck did I have to get rescued from fucking rock bottom or whatever by you? I'm tired. Get the fuck out of my face. Current Mood: frustrated (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 19th, 2008
8:03 pm	[Filter: Private] ... yeah, I was pretty much a fucking mess there, wasn't I? I have been a fucking mess. It's been ... Fuck. Current Mood: pensive (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 12th, 2008
3:11 pm	[dirty and written weakly and messily] where where's my money? Current Mood: indescribable (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 11th, 2008
1:08 am	[the writing is very unsteady and covered in dirt] should go torch his fucking place just burn it right down don't even know if he's still living there but it doesn't fucking matter just wanna see it fucking burn Current Mood: just all around a mess! (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 11th, 2008
11:06 pm	[the writing is unsteady and covered in dirt] I'm not drunk, I'm angry it's fucking different and those dumbfucks were asking for it I fucking swear. I'm not going back to jail again, bastards gotta catch me first. Current Mood: enraged (Comment on this)
Monday, April 14th, 2008
12:15 am	[the writing is unsteady] I If that thug gives me that look one more fucking time I've going to cave his ugly face right in. Current Mood: angry (Comment on this)